I started on the new regime with the new single drug, Ixempra. As Dr Wong said, two of the side effects were body ache and numbness in fingers and feet. After 2 months of oral regime, I had to return to intravenous treatment. It was a good thing that nurse KOH aka teddy bear did the plug for me. However, the anti-allergy drug given totally knocked me out, both during and after drip. It left me feeling groggy till the following day.
The body ache started to kick in on the second day and intensified on the third day. The body ache was like being boxed by someone and left me feeling painful (especially the joints) all over. I couldn't sit up, lie down or even walk, every posture was incredibly uncomfortable. Very frustrating. I had to take the strong painkiller prescribed by Dr Wong. It only provided slight relief, even though the medicine could last 12 hours. Then I had this itch/rash on the upper half of my body. I scratched myself raw on the chest and on the shoulders. The other side effect I had was constipation. I was feeling bloated and the intestines were sluggish. I rang the walk-in clinic for an appointment since I was going to SGH to see my liver specialist that Tuesday. Ser was really thoughtful and gave me a lift to the clinic after our usual breakfast and marketing.
At the clinic I was told that I might have to wait for at least two hours. I let the nurse know of my other appointment at SGH. As I was pressing for time, another doctor just took a look at me outside the clinic and prescribed medications. While waiting at the cashier (no consultation fees payable since I wasn't examined in the clinic), this couple kept smiling and waving at me. Turned out that the lady patient recognised me from the cancer programme. O.O!
It was good to see my liver specialist again. She also caught me on the repeat showing of the programme. She asked, "Oh, you didn't use your Chinese name?" I smiled and said, "No lah, I asked them to use my Christian name." My previous liver specialist is back in Singapore, but I decided to stick to Dr Ng. The consultation card had several names of the liver specialists I had seen after the first one left for private practice. I felt very comfortable with Dr Ng and she really showed care for her patients. She saw my weight loss and asked if I needed to see a nutritionist. She encouraged and reminded me to eat well since I am still on treatment.
By the way, Dr Wong too had left NCC for private practice. In my humble opinion, I felt that NCC has been losing good staff over the years. The queue for Dr Wong's clinic was incredibly long. There was once we waited for two and a half hours. There was a patient then who said Dr Wong is a "big shot" doctor and yet refused to see another doctor when the nurse suggested. The patient claimed that she saw another doctor and wasn't happy/satisfied. She and her spouse certainly showed their impatience and dissatisfaction for the long wait.
I'm always grateful and thankful to the doctors who have/had taken care of me. Sometime ago, my ex-classmate called to say she saw me on tv and shared that she has been diagnosed with br.east cancer. She went to NCC initially but changed to another hospital after she found the doctor not quite whom she wanted. That was another reminder that my doctors "rock"! My Chinese physician is just as wonderful. Blessed me!
It's been a month since I last posted. I'm still on this battle against cancer. Sometimes it feels easier to give up, especially when the side effects are in full swing and the fighting seems futile. There are more "down" times but within those times, there exists "up" moments, albeit short ones. These short moments sometimes provide me impetus to continue. I very much prefer to be left alone although I must say that my friends are always there for me. Don't worry, if I ever need anything from my friends, I won't hesitate to ask. Promise!
Oh, the hair has started to drop since Sunday and I'm going for the shave this evening. I have a new wig to play with, courtesy of Lyn. She also bought me the last one five years ago. I'm just wondering if I'm brave enough to just wear bandanas. Yati, the lab technician, suggested wearing a hat with jeans. She said I'm petite and should look quite "stylo" in that. Haha!
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