regime#7 stopped

regime #7 stopped

[24 Feb 2009, 06:16:49 PM]

My low platelet count caused some inconvenience, confusion and rescheduling of appointments. A backtrack of my days.

Saw the Chinese physician on 6th Feb.
Went to Dr See's clinic on 7th Feb (after receiving a call as I forgot about it).
Did a heart echo on the same day. Heart functions were normal. Put on anti-hypertension medication as my blood pressure is still high. Forgot to bring cardigan out that day and was freezing cold in the clinics.


Cycle 5b was re-scheduled to 17th Feb, but I was supposed to see Dr Wong, my new onco, on 19th. Both were too close. I approached the friendly and helpful staff to ask if it was alright to ask Dr Wong about the chemo and her appointment being so close apart. Meanwhile, I had to re-schedule my appointment with the liver specialist, which was also on the 17th. The clinic only reverted a few days later and told me not to go for cycle 5b on 17th, but instead keep the appointment with Dr Wong.


Well, my platelet count is back up from a low of 81 to 173, after drinking peanut soup and "black dates plus other stuff" water. The low count triggered the alarm bells and "Shuai Ge" almost called everyone he knows or has one way or other plays a part in my treatment. I co-operated by drinking whatever he bought to boost my platelet count. He was worried because WZ is still having problem boosting hers, and did not want the same for me. Good thing mine managed to climb back to within range again. Phew!


Whilst the platelet count and other blood count were within normal range, the marker doubled (132). Dr Wong reckoned that the current regime is no longer working for me and suggested not to proceed. I opted for a week's rest and to mull over the next regime. She listed the options, which are the same as what Dr See mentioned before. It's quite scary to think I have already tried so many drugs and have yet to find one combo that will keep the naughty cells at bay. Now I am having drug-related side effects, like high blood pressure. I would be lying if I tell you I'm not frightened. But as the good doctor said, "Let's treat you and not the number."


I will be seeing Dr Wong again this Thursday. Hopefully by then we would be able to reach a decision: either the one painful on the pocket, kinder to my veins or the one not as painful on the pocket but torturing on my veins. Or best, rest some more and it will be not painful on the pocket yet and resting for the veins. Hahaha!


Oh, I met Fleur (as Dr Wong is her onco too) last Thursday. Just that I didn't expect it to be so soon, especially on my first appointment with Dr Wong. Now you know why I blog my appointments. ;)

cycle 5b postponed

cycle 5b postponed

[9 Feb 2009, 09:34:27 PM]

As titled, cycle 5b today has been postponed to next week. My platelet count was low (probably the lowest so far) and did not hit the minimum level stipulated by my doctor. I was put on hypertension medication on Saturday after seeing the cardiologist as my blood pressure is still high. This, I believe, is more drug-related. Is my body showing signs of fatigue? Will see how next week.

Rojak II, cycle 5a

Rojak II, cycle 5a

[2 Feb 2009, 08:55:43 PM]

Okay, I'm lazy to think of a proper title for this entry. This is what I'm craving for of late: rojak. However, the "food police" in the house refuses to let me have it too often. He did buy me sometimes on the way back home, so I wasn't deprived, just "gian" (i.e. craves).


Had my treatment this afternoon. It is back to avastin+gemox regime. The plug was really long and many nurses turned to see what regime I was on. Was given the jasmine suite and saw a few familiar faces (nurses). It felt like going back to school after a vacation or something. The patient next to me and his wife chatted with me when there were no nurses in the room. He was quite chatty. His wife is kinda "eng kee" (read: modern-looking), wearing bright-coloured clothes (really bright) and her hair dyed reddish. We were the last two patients to leave the room.


After I told my friends about the "no surgery" decision, most were happy. I believe they don't want to see me in post-surgery pain. Did I mention that the PET scan showed that I have "brown fats"? "Brown fats" have high metabolism rate and that's one reason why I don't put on weight. I was O.O!! First time I heard of such a thing.

(Errr, i will continue tomorrow. Go watch tv. Heehee)
(continued on Thursday)

When I was given the surgery option, I was reluctant to consider it. Firstly, I am averse to going through the trauma. Then the down-time is something I don't like. I will miss my BSF classes, something which will also affect musketeer sheep. And if I miss the class on the life of Moses this year, the next one will be seven years later.


So, where do I go from here? It's most likely going to be chemotherapy to control the disease. (I don't have many options anyway.) Meanwhile, the wait is for approval of some newer drugs which I can try later. A new oncologist has been assigned to take over from Dr Chia. She is going to take some time familiarising herself with my case. Apparently my case file is quite thick and I have had so many regimes. *laughs*


The short respite during the CNY gave me a much needed rest. I was having mood swings since October and had been feeling rather low since then. I reckoned it was triggered by the spike in readings that time. Then learning of the loss of Shandy Sim, and the worsening condition of Shin. Another possibility of the swings was the accumulation of drugs in the body, before it could even rest enough for the next cycle. I had several nights and episodes of terrible headache and stomach-related pain during these few months. I thought my time on earth was up and God was calling me home. I remembered praying for the pain to be bearable and for good rest.


One of the reasons I asked for a change back to gemox regime was the side effects I was having. One side effect of gemzar is constipation, which no matter how much fruits I eat, still persists. Cisplatin gave me bladder problems. Plus, all the nausea and loss of appetite, it was amazing how I even looked forward to my twice-a-week outing. I told "Shuai Ge" life/happiness could be simple. As long as I can eat (even though I lost my taste buds) and sleep well, and can pee and poo (pardon the language) with ease, I'm one happy person. He concurred.


It was not surprising that I had no CNY mood this year. However, it was still celebrated. I hope the mood swings are minimal in the days to come, or at least manageable. Otherwise, I'm going to be a hermit crab in the year of the Ox.