doctor's review

I don't know how to begin this entry. Went for my appointment with Dr See this morning. Was rather shocked I lost so much weight. Dr See commented that I looked pale and weak. I think I have not been feeling well the last ten days or so. Poor appetite, pain, lethargy, bleeding, nausea and discomfort are my daily companions. I lie down on the bed most of the time.

Dr See suggested a CT scan to see what is happening inside me, and to address the weight loss and bowel issues. An optimistic case scenario is a stoma surgery, worst case being nothing can be done. I don't know how to react to this, just feel so tired and in pain. I seriously don't know how much longer I can bear all these.

Was rather touched when I received an email from my young friends this evening. It was a slideshow put together as a present for me. I was tearing as I watched the slideshow and the messages each of them wrote to me. I may not have my health, but I'm certainly surrounded by many friends and love.